Monday, April 18, 2011

It Hurts So Good...

I am so hungry and it feels fantastic... The pain is a constant

torture, but when I'm hungry, I feel thinner. But I know I must

eat. Something small. Just to survive. I'll feel like a failure,

 but I Live to be Pretty. And I Eat to Live,  I Don't Live

to Eat. I don't know what to do. I've been living

off Pepsi Max, Coffee, and Cigarettes.

 Every time my stomach growls

though, I get an overwhelming

 senseof gratification throughout my

body. So i'm stuck between eating and

not eating. I can't decide which I really want. I

want to be thinner, so I think I'd not eat. But I can't

stand the headaches and pain anymore. I need it to go

away, at least for a little while... I'll let you know how it goes... 

1 comment:

  1. i know EXACTLY how you feel.
    the only thing that makes hunger bearable is knowing its making you thinner.
    stay strong girl!

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