My Map

~~A random collection of moments amongst my life~~

• April 16th, 2011
• I must inform you first and foremost: I am a stoner. Which is something I will not give up no matter what I'm trying to achieve. So 'munchies' are my worst enemy. I have to watch myself very carefully. I can't slip up. Not now, not ever.
• I was hungry. List of foods that day:
• Breakfast: Coffee
• Lunch: Coffee; 5 slices of deli ham; 2 Fig Newtons
• Snack: Coffee; 1 Fig Newton
• Dinner: 1 cup of Pasta; 1 Pepsi Max
• I couldn't help myself. I wanted something. I walked into the kitchen and couldn't find any edible fruit to eat. So I saw my package of Fig Newtons that was left on the counter. I picked it up to find but one lonely Fig Newton, and decided that is was fate that this was all that was left for me. 

~This was Meant to Be~

• April 17th, 2011
• I don't like going to my grandmothers house, especially for dinner... It means I have to eat... I can't fake it, I refuse to purge... It's a lost battle. I will just have to keep my portions small. Eat all the vegetables and pick at everything else... It's all I can think to do.
• Luckily I didn't eat that much. I picked away as much as I could without being noticed. I still ate more than I would have liked. But I know I haven't eaten a lot today already, so really, I may not have set myself that far back. I have to remember... 

"Eat to Live, But Don't Live to Eat"


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~~Eat Now, Cleanse Tomorrow~~

Just in case anyone was wondering, I love the whole Scene/Emo image. So 99.9% of any Thinspiration pictures that I post on my blog will be of Scene/Emo girls.

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• April 18th, 2011
• I ate so much today.. oat meal, green bean casserole, stuffed shells... I'm gonna hate myself tomorrow...