I must keep this in mind for the next holiday that comes up,
but they are the worst days to try not to eat. And it doesn't help
that I had to go to TWO different houses for Easter dinner, it
was difficult to try and make excuses both times. I was
proud of myself for at least only eating a little bit, but
then I went home and fell asleep for 3 hours and
woke up to a feeding frenzy. I ate handfuls of
chocolate candy and a reese's ice cream
cake... I was so ashamed of myself
and had no one been home I
would've purged...
(Thanks
to my
amazing
Ana Buddy
Ashley, I now
know how to purge)
I feel so fat and disgusting,
and at least I have the next two
days off from work so I think this would
be a good time to do a two day fast, try and
get all this shit out of me and get my ass back
on track to skinnyville. I can't stand the sight of
myself anymore, I can't enjoy sex cause I think my boyfriend
is disgusted by me, I don't want to hang out with my friends because
I think they're all thinner and more beautiful than me... It's a never
ending battle and I won't win til there is not one ounce of fat
on my body. Wish me luck girls, I'm gonna need all I can get...
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oh darling, i know just how you feel!
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i just wanna say, be careful with the whole purging thing, it can get wayy addictive (i'm not trying to have a go at you, i do it a lot myself, too much in fact.)
keep thinking thin, and good luck girl!
xoxo
Thanks lovely. I've been told from several people that purging can be addictive, so I plan on only doing it when its a last resort. But thanks for looking out for me :)
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